Who I am...

I hate to admit it but I have an introvert personality.I also get depressed easily especially when you weren't really invited to something but that one relative posts pictures and videos about it and you wish they would have invited you or even acknowledge you sometimes. Like a "hey,how are you?" kind of thing but they don't,yet they have you as a friend on Facebook and some even have you on their instagram.
I hate being this way because in a way my children suffer from not having memories to look back on like I have of my childhood. It makes me sad at the same time I feel better knowing I'm keeping them from certain influences.

Mom? Perfect?

I don't know about other moms out there but my house is never completely clean and I almost never wear makeup and I am usually in my pj's all day,my hair stays a mess and I sometimes yell at my kids.
Where people got the idea that mothers look,talk and act like Mary poppins is beyond me. Most moms like me survive on fast food or something quick to eat like poptarts or something and some sort of caffeine just to survive the day.

Most of us don't have any kind of schedule going and the kids usually are driving her crazy and a husband who doesn't help much.so stop thinking that we are all perfect because we aren't. We are normal people just like everyone else.we have no superpowers or anything else.well..except maybe the ability to block out the favorite song that gets played a thousand times or the ability to hear a baby whining through just about any noise.lol.

A mother's love....

Ill be honest with you: I never knew or understand what a mother's love really meant.I had no idea of what it felt like or anything up until I had children of my own.I was only nineteen when I had my first child but feeling his kicks for nine months and later on watching him go through eye surgery at least four times in his short five years....I have come to realize that you cannot describe the love of a mother.it's not something that you can put into words. And I think that it doesn't fade or that it's stronger for one child but not the others.but that it grows stronger each time you have children.
You get to relive that first pregnancy again,you get to watch your older children fall in love with their siblings.it's a miracle to experience and those that say they are never having children are really depriving themselves from an indescribable experience.
I am not condoning those kinds of people but I'm just saying that they don't know what they are missing.loving an animal is one thing but that animal can be replaced.feeling a life grow inside you and taking care of that little being is not replaceable in any form.

I want to know

I want to know who the idiot is that came up with the idea that women are the weaker gender. How in the world that they came up with this idea and got people to believe it so strongly that a lot of men believe that idea even today is beyond me. Obviously women are not all that weak because it you look at what we do,what our bodies can do is pretty overwhelming.
Our bodies can create life.the pain we endure while creating each life is outstanding in itself.the amount of pain a woman goes through while in labor actually supersedes the amount a human body can actually take.so,taking that into consideration; how can women be weak?
We are the ones who take care of the children that we create plus the women who are surrogate mothers really get my respect because I know I fell in love with my children with the first kick but to have children just to give that child up to a woman who wants children but can't have any must take a really strong woman.
That and we put up with a lot of crap from men daily without committing murder,lol.if that's not strong then I don't know what is.

Two?

Trying to adjust to having two children to look after is hard.especially since I have had only one child for five years now.and ever since August I have two boys now.the eldest is five so a lot of the time I feel like I am ignoring him because his brother isn't even a month old yet.he's not even two weeks. And so trying to balance out my time is definitely in the learning process.
And then here soon we will have to take the youngest to an eye doctor to have his cataracts removed like we did when his older brother was born so that day my attention will definitely be on the younger sibling. I hate having to divide my time like that but I am trying.