Being a mom with epilepsy

Most people do not understand what it is like to have a chronic medical decision and still have to raise children. Its harder because on days that you feel at your absolute worst, you still have children to get dressed,fed,and up for the tasks of the day. There is no chance to stay in bed to recover from an absence seizure or even a full seizure.
Your children act more overprotective of you then most children do.they help remind you to take your medication.if they are at the grandparents and try to call but you somehow miss their call,they suddenly want to come home to check on you....(true story....my five year old did this when I failed to call him back once)

Being a mom in general is stressful enough to start with but add in medical illness and you have an even bigger mess. Especially when you add in the side effects of the medication that you take. Like forgetfulness,tiredness,moodiness.....all that and then some.

But keep your head high if you are one of those moms and reading this because you are not alone. 💋🌺🌸

Baby no show

Today I had an appointment with my baby doctor. They tried to get an ultrasound picture but he just was not having it at all.every time she tried to get a glimpse of his face, he would turn away and move away. But his heartbeat is strong so that's good news ❤
Having a medical condition while being pregnant makes me antsy over everything that happens with my body or with him.
I hope you all have a great day ❤ 💘 😃

Appreciation

I've come to have a real appreciation for those women who choose to become surrogate mothers. Or those that get pregnant and bear children for couples that cannot have children. When you carry a child,or children, inside for nine months, you get attached to them. When you bear the heartbeat you get attached, especially when you feel them start moving around.
By then it's probably (I'm just guessing here) hard to let go after that point. Women are far stronger than anyone gives us credit for. We endure our husband's problems, we bear children, we nurse sick children, we help each other when one of us lose a husband or child. We right for our children. Yet society sees is as the weaker gender.
You don't see any males getting pregnant.in fact, men are trying to now become like us through transgender surgery. I kind of find that flattering,somewhat.
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Being a mom with an invisible illness...

Invisible illness? Yes there is a such thing. Just because a person looks perfectly normal appearance-wise, does not mean that they are not fighting some kind of disability.
I am a mother of one,pregnant with baby #2, and I live with epilepsy. You cannot see it if you were to see me out somewhere but I do suffer from it. Am I asking for your pity? No. I am just being open about the fact that I live with something that can seriously injure my life and could possibly kill me.
Research for epilepsy is seriously underfunded. Yet it should take top priority over breast cancer research. I do support breast cancer but you can have it removed if it is caught early.you cannot do that with epilepsy.once you have it, you live in fear all the time. You constantly think "what of I have a seizure right now?" no matter what you are doing.

I am not afraid to say that I am a survivor and that I hope to never pass this on to my children.

22 weeks

On,so now I am officially five months along! And had positive news from the doctor yesterday,so that's awesome.and I can feel the baby kick now.I was worried about this because of the fact that this pregnancy is considered a "high risk" type.but it's all good so yay!
More updates later on! 💕😘

First time mom?

Are you a first time mom,or going to be? I want to say to you that it is ok to be scared and worried. You never know what can happen or what will happen.you can only take it one day at a time and enjoy every minute of it. Is pregnancy glamourous as you see online? No,it isn't.you are really tired most of the time, you feel awkward,you get stretch marks,you might have horrible heartburn,you get backpain,swollen ankles,sore feet but it is all worth it! Especially when you feel that little baby kick for the first time,granted by the time your in labor you will wish the baby kicks to stop, but it a special thing that you will never forget.

Do not be afraid to ask for help from other mothers.someone else might be experiencing the same situation but are afraid to ask.other mothers are always willing to help you.it's always good to have a support system of other mothers because it not only gives you friends whom you share something with but it gives your child a friend as well.

If you mess up or feel like your messing up, do not worry! Like I already said,do not be afraid to open up to other mothers. We all feel overwhelmed at one time or another, you are not alone.

Happy mothers day!❤👣🌸💐🌺

21 weeks

Happy to be pregnant again. Although this time is much different in many ways.for one I was not as of a heavyweight during my first pregnancy as I am now.plus I was only nineteen during the first and I am now twenty five with the second.I also did not have epilepsy the first time. I was diagnosed with epilepsy at the age of twenty one.

I've been worried that my medication might hurt the baby but the doctors tell me that it is relatively safe and wont hurt the baby.the only thing they said it might do is cause the baby's birth weight be lower than it was during my first delivery. But if thats the only thing that will be wrong, I'll take that.

My son ended up having cataracts when he was born and ended up with glaucoma and now at five years old has shunts in his eyes and has to take eye drops twice a day to keep his eye pressure controlled. But he gets that from his father who has the same condition. I just hope that this second son doesn't have it because going through all those surgeries once was horrible enough.

I did notice that my husband is the only one in his family to have this eye condition.his younger brothers didn't have it at all,so there is hope.I have also noticed that I have not felt the baby kick yet. By now,during the first pregnancy, the baby was already kicking like crazy.but with my being heavier and the baby possibly being smaller, there's no telling when the kicks will come. That is one feeling that you will never forget though. Its both an annoyance and loving at the same time. Its mainly annoying when trying to sleep,because that is when it seems that he wanted to kick the most.

More updates coming later 💕