Being a mom with an invisible illness...

Invisible illness? Yes there is a such thing. Just because a person looks perfectly normal appearance-wise, does not mean that they are not fighting some kind of disability.
I am a mother of one,pregnant with baby #2, and I live with epilepsy. You cannot see it if you were to see me out somewhere but I do suffer from it. Am I asking for your pity? No. I am just being open about the fact that I live with something that can seriously injure my life and could possibly kill me.
Research for epilepsy is seriously underfunded. Yet it should take top priority over breast cancer research. I do support breast cancer but you can have it removed if it is caught early.you cannot do that with epilepsy.once you have it, you live in fear all the time. You constantly think "what of I have a seizure right now?" no matter what you are doing.

I am not afraid to say that I am a survivor and that I hope to never pass this on to my children.

22 weeks

On,so now I am officially five months along! And had positive news from the doctor yesterday,so that's awesome.and I can feel the baby kick now.I was worried about this because of the fact that this pregnancy is considered a "high risk" type.but it's all good so yay!
More updates later on! 💕😘

First time mom?

Are you a first time mom,or going to be? I want to say to you that it is ok to be scared and worried. You never know what can happen or what will happen.you can only take it one day at a time and enjoy every minute of it. Is pregnancy glamourous as you see online? No,it isn't.you are really tired most of the time, you feel awkward,you get stretch marks,you might have horrible heartburn,you get backpain,swollen ankles,sore feet but it is all worth it! Especially when you feel that little baby kick for the first time,granted by the time your in labor you will wish the baby kicks to stop, but it a special thing that you will never forget.

Do not be afraid to ask for help from other mothers.someone else might be experiencing the same situation but are afraid to ask.other mothers are always willing to help you.it's always good to have a support system of other mothers because it not only gives you friends whom you share something with but it gives your child a friend as well.

If you mess up or feel like your messing up, do not worry! Like I already said,do not be afraid to open up to other mothers. We all feel overwhelmed at one time or another, you are not alone.

Happy mothers day!❤👣🌸💐🌺

21 weeks

Happy to be pregnant again. Although this time is much different in many ways.for one I was not as of a heavyweight during my first pregnancy as I am now.plus I was only nineteen during the first and I am now twenty five with the second.I also did not have epilepsy the first time. I was diagnosed with epilepsy at the age of twenty one.

I've been worried that my medication might hurt the baby but the doctors tell me that it is relatively safe and wont hurt the baby.the only thing they said it might do is cause the baby's birth weight be lower than it was during my first delivery. But if thats the only thing that will be wrong, I'll take that.

My son ended up having cataracts when he was born and ended up with glaucoma and now at five years old has shunts in his eyes and has to take eye drops twice a day to keep his eye pressure controlled. But he gets that from his father who has the same condition. I just hope that this second son doesn't have it because going through all those surgeries once was horrible enough.

I did notice that my husband is the only one in his family to have this eye condition.his younger brothers didn't have it at all,so there is hope.I have also noticed that I have not felt the baby kick yet. By now,during the first pregnancy, the baby was already kicking like crazy.but with my being heavier and the baby possibly being smaller, there's no telling when the kicks will come. That is one feeling that you will never forget though. Its both an annoyance and loving at the same time. Its mainly annoying when trying to sleep,because that is when it seems that he wanted to kick the most.

More updates coming later 💕