My life

I have to admit that I have always had issues with my body and my mind. Whether I'm too shy or what I wished I looked like.you know,normal worries. But then I turned nineteen and got set up with this great guy, who has been my husband for five years so far, and next thing I know I am pregnant with my first child, who is turning five this year 😦,but going through those changes and feeling his kicks and then giving birth to him has really opened my mind and has stomped on those issues I had.
Even more so with all the healthy issues that we later found out about his eyes. (born with cataracts,ended up having glaucoma which we're still dealing with now) but despite all of that, he has remained just so unbelievably happy and is the sweetest most living child on this planet. Seeing him face all this and watch him never change demeanor has really taught me major lessons and helped to further stomp down my own issues. Also seeing him love me unconditionally even though I'm overweight,etc makes me love him that much more.it makes me realize that that stuff doesn't matter at all.
Then I developed epilepsy and had to go through having him witness several of my seizures reevaluated my thinking as well. Ever since that first seizure,if I am laying down for any reason or if I complain of not feeling well,he immediately will come lay beside me or he will constantly come ask if I am okay. He'll love on me, give me kisses and endless hugs, thinking in his mind that it'll make me feel better and in many ways it actually does. I mean I'm in my midtwenties and here is a five year old little boy who does everything he can to male me feel better.how can you not love him for that?
So now I have come upon finding myself pregnant yet again.mind you that I still have epilepsy so this pregnancy is really stressing me out.I have fears that are there now that weren't before during my first pregnancy.but my son, and my husband, still remain the sweet ones they are. My son even tried ,on purpose, not to lay on my stomach and such. He says he wants a little brother,😄 at this point I don't care what gender the baby is but that it comes out perfectly healthy and doesn't have any health problems.
Becoming a mother really changes you.